The moment when you tell yourself to breathe deep, trust, let go, and see what happens….
Some people knew since they were very young that they wanted to become a teacher, that wasn’t me. I was always aiming for the corporate life. In my grade 2 essay, while all the boys in my class chose to be firemen and police officers, and the girls teachers and nurses, I wrote I wanted to become a business woman. Throughout my elementary and high school life, I thought about nothing but to attend a top notch business school, land a corporate job (preferably with a Fortune 500 company), and climb the ladder to the ultimate vision of a power woman.
And I did all that.
The second best ride of my life was going to Sauder School of Business at the University of British Columbia (Canada) and participate in an one-year exchange program to France. The best ride of my life, so far, was my near three years experience at Target Canada (landed that job at a Fortune 500). It was a rollercoaster: I was a part of the largest and fastest Canadian retail expansion, and three years later, the second largest layoff in our country’s history. In between the two ends though, I learned a lot, particularly about myself.
In the past year, the vision I had for myself since childhood began to blur. I started questioning every task I had on hand. Why do I complete this report every Monday? What did I personally get out of the last meeting? Was my morning well spent on this analysis? I found less and less meaning in my weekly tasks. Even when I tried adding up all that I had done in a day, to me, they added up to very little. Finally, I had to ask myself, “Is this what I want in a meaningful life?”. The answer was a loud “no”, but for a long time, I didn’t know what I wanted to do. For fun, I started my TEFL (Teach English as a Foreign Language) certificate, and began toying with the idea of teaching. It was still a deep struggle between investing in my development at a job I had versus a job I wasn’t even sure I wanted. Until last December.
Everybody experiences moments in their life when they know, from this minute on, everything changes. I had such a moment. A friend of mine, who is a dancer, has always struggled with math. It’s never easy to face our own fears, and math was his. He has been afraid to ask for help, fearing judgement from others and worst, himself. But when he asked for me to be his teacher, I felt a strong spark ignite inside and spread across my body like wildfire. Nothing, absolutely nothing made me feel this way before. As if the fire burned all that existed inside of me, and life reborn. That was the moment I knew everything will be different. That was the moment I bent my knees, tucked my arms, ready to take the leap….
And then, I was flying.